I've ran about 21 1/2 marathons and 2 marathons in the last 15yrs. Most of them I haven't trained for, but still run and have fun doing it. I've run them even when sick and raining at a marathon. Today I had a trail 1/2 and could not muster up any energy to drive 45 mins for it even though its at a park I hiked often. I was hoping this could get me back to running again. But I hardly trained/exercised, been overeating, and I've been feeling really depressed. Ugh - trying to be kind to myself.