Posted by: anonymous

2019-08-06 02:45:36

ID: 61250

I do the same, but a lot of my references also lean more towards history and literature. My tribe - those I grew up/went to school with - would totally understand, but I live far away now. I remember being at a Christmas party when I first moved here, and making a toast with a Hemingway quote. Everyone looked at me like I had two heads. Someone even said, "What the F is that supposed to mean?" That was the first of many instances where I felt totally alone. I've been here more than 20 years and feel like a fish out of water on the daily.

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Posted by: anonymous

2019-08-06 02:04:32

ID: 61226

If you're ready to make the commitment to getting better, find a therapist who specializes in eating disorders. Maybe even consider going inpatient, for a short while. It's scary. It's intense. It's totally worth it. But only if you're ready. You have an illness. If this were cancer or diabetes, you'd treat it, right? This is no different. You're worth it.

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Posted by: anonymous

2019-08-05 14:22:54

ID: 61244

I make movie & music references that no one gets but me. Sometimes I wish I knew even one person in my life that would just.... get me, ya know? I'm just odd. I just am. I'm not like everybody else. Not anybody I've met, anyway. I guess what I'm saying is I haven't found my 'tribe' and I'm faced with the very real prospect that I never will. And that kinda sucks. It feels pretty lonely.

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Posted by: anonymous

2019-08-05 06:02:19

ID: 61239

I saw a picture of myself the other day and I actually looked pretty good! My arms were slimmer, and my jawline was sharper! I am still at ten pounds of weight loss. I have ten to go. I can do it!

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Posted by: anonymous

2019-08-05 05:26:38

ID: 61222

The point of the FODMAP isn't to follow it like a strict diet; it's more like a guideline of foods that might trigger your IBS. If I eat something that really makes me bloat, I can check the list to see if it's a known trigger food, and be more cautious next time. No one can eliminate everything on it. That would be crazy. Also, there are foods that trigger me that I've never seen listed, like bacon and sausage. Don't beat yourself up over food. That's not healthy.

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Posted by: anonymous

2019-08-05 04:24:50

ID: 61238

I have to move out of my current rental by Dec and want to get my own apartment. Hard to afford anything on own working for nonprofit in SF Bay Area. Going to start working on my side hustle and get recertified as massage therapy/yoga instructor.

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Posted by: anonymous

2019-08-04 22:48:25

ID: 61234

I binge eat too. Anything. Fruit's good, right? Not if you eat the whole bunch of bananas at once. They say apples and almond butter makes you feel full and is healthy. Yep, ate about 6 apples and the whole jar of almond butter in one sitting. OK, so don't have food in the house that will trigger a binge. Well, I have driven 50 miles at 3:00am to find an open store so I can binge. I cry almost every day about my inability to stop the binge eating. I've been to countless therapists over the last 20 years. I've been medicated for it, even hypnotized. Some medications worked, but with all of them, you build a tolerance and they stop working after a few months. I remember binge eating when I was as young as 4. I used to sneak and eat whole packs of raw hot dogs.I truly think there is some kind of chemical imbalance in my brain that doesn't allow it to react to food like normal people do, which is why certain medications work until I become tolerant to them. It's a living hell.

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Posted by: anonymous

2019-08-04 21:29:37

ID: 61233

I've got a similar problem. I just have a massive, massive appetite. And I am not satisfied by average amounts of food. I actually give myself permission to binge on veggies and fruit if I want to fill up. Sure, it makes me bloated a bit for a while, but it's the only reason I'm not 400 lbs or more. I eat other stuff too, but I portion that out and then fill the cavernous void that is my stomach up with veggies and fruits. Probably not ideal, but that's how I cope.

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Posted by: anonymous

2019-08-04 11:58:36

ID: 61224

i think there's no hope for me when it comes to my binge eating. when the urge comes, i can literally binge on anything. i've binged on bags of raw carrots, heads of cauliflower, and broccoli bunches to the point of illness so eating "real, natural foods" does nothing to curb it. i just can't be trusted around any food, period. i don't know what to do.

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Posted by: anonymous

2019-08-04 01:29:17

ID: 61220

You're not pathetic - I almost always eat only natural foods, and I couldn't survive on that diet. About 80% of the things on the NO list are what I eat regularly. I also have IBS, but I'm not giving those things up!

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