Today is Day 1 of the Outdoor leadership program. It's going to be part online and part in-person. I'm feeling weary again since I'll be at least 10 years older than everyone in the room and the in-person meetings. It's a 3-month program, we meet 2 hours every week then meet in person every 2 weeks for the excursions. But I don't know what the time commitment is since I imagine I will need to prep for class and stuff. I still really need to spend free time working on my my mental health. I am absolutely sick of letting the past dictate my present/future, making poor choices, and finally need to address the trauma.