I went to my sister's new vacation home for Christmas and it was nice but everyone - my other sister, my nieces, my cousins - dive and I don't. I was invited to come back but I didn't - stomach problems then pink eye. It is two hours drive for me which includes a bridge that petrifies me. I don't like going out on the boat and that is their main thing. I love the beach and go at least twice a week but hate open water and there is no beach there. Last time I went they all left me alone swimming with the boat, no ladder to get back up, seas four feet and I was scared. So I think I made up physical reasons not to go when it was really mental. And that's okay with me. I love my family but fuck it, I stayed home, read books, made movie plans with my friend. I really hate open ocean and see no practical reason I need to change.