What is scaring you about WW? I did WW nearly 15 years ago, and I have kept the weight off since then. Go. Like jumping into a cold pool - don't think about it, don't prepare for it, just go. Everyone there is like you. You will learn new things, you will figure out what is most likely holding you back from losing weight. You will sometimes stumble, and gain a pound or two back, and then recommit and start losing again. I will be a journey, and probably not easy, but not as hard as you are imagining. If you start right now, you will be in a great place (mentally and physically) for the holidays. Go! Right now!