I feel like shit. I know I'm obese-I've been working out, trying *trying* to eat better because I want to live along time for my sons. I'm pregnant and I may have gestational diabetes. I had it with my first son and now this time too.I know I shouldn't-but I looked up the statistics regarding my chances of getting type 2 diabetes-it's prettyhigh!I'm scared shitless,I want to lose weight the healthy way because the last time I lost a lot of weight, I was also using laxative like crazy. I am so angry at my body and myself. I don't want to die! I know once this baby is born I will have a crazy,uphill battle to lose all my unnecessary weight. I can't blame anyone but myself for my situation.I know I can prevent type 2 but I also feel so hopeless.