We've agreed to go downstate to visit DH's relatives for Christmas. We haven't done this since his mom moved out of state. She used to host a big Christmas party every year and when she moved, his aunt & uncle took over hosting the party. We haven't attended one yet. I know it's important and we'll have a good time. My confession is I don't want to go. At all. I want to stay home and spend Christmas with my DS, DIL, DGD, and my DD. I know they'll have a great time without me, they'll go visit their dad (XDH), and DIL's family. I just hate the thought of not being with them. I hate it. I'll muscle through and keep a smile on my face, but I do NOT want to go downstate. There I said it. To someone at least.