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Posted by: anonymous
2014-04-18 13:50:03
ID: 2731
Easter... All alone... Even he has ignored me, though he Said he'd have time for me.
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Posted by: hanginin
2014-04-18 13:10:11
ID: 2730
I had a dream last night that I was getting called out by an old friend for missing her wedding (which I did- and it was shitty). She was ripping me a new one and I knew I deserved it, but in the middle of what she was saying I got up, walked outside and lit a cigarette. She followed me outside, but she just got in her car, slammed the door, and drove off. And I stood there all by myself, smoking. Feeling completely and deservedly terrible. I woke up feeling all guilty and bad. But- I still have not smoked.
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Posted by: anonymous
2014-04-18 07:50:56
ID: 2728
I have been away from my kitty for a week now, and I miss him so much. I am tempted to call and talk to him via the answering machine, but I don't know if that would be cruel. Grandma is taking care of him in my absence, checking on him twice a day and spending some time playing with him. I feel guilty though--he is used to his family being with him every morning, afternoon, and night.
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Posted by: anonymous
2014-04-18 07:40:27
ID: 2725
I often have trouble going pee. It doesn't matter if it's at home or in a public restroom. The atmosphere has to be just right--not too loud, not too quiet, bladder just full enough, can't be too pressed for time. It's the oddest thing, and I have been dealing with this for over 25 years. There's nothing physically wrong with me. Once I mentioned it to a new doctor who said it could be a type of social phobia. Who knows, but it's very inconvenient.
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Posted by: anonymous
2014-04-18 05:09:19
ID: 2723
Gave up my first Cycling class after for 7 months. Monday at 5:45 am was never something I could adjust to, always felt anxiety the night before about not waking up on time since I overslept twice. I had a decent following when I started, but it began to dwindle and I started another smaller following, but it was inconsistent as was my teaching. I know that sometimes I felt great and prepared and other times I did not. Went to a class tonight at another gym and realize I miss teaching even though its only been a little over a week and the Spinner bikes are clunky compared to the Keiser bikes.
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Posted by: anonymous
2014-04-18 04:00:56
ID: 2722
How the hell would a mil know what kind of bra and panty set her dil owns and that her own son hasn't seen it? If I were this dil I'd be creeped out beyond words to know my that mil knew every personal lingerie item I had in my dresser and whether or not my dh has seen these items or not.
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Posted by: Spectra
2014-04-18 02:18:59
ID: 2720
I've confessed on here before about being irrationally afraid of mold. Well, DH knows this and last night he scared the CRAP out of me with a FUCKING DORITO. It was burnt and chunky and knobby and he came up to me and said "Hey, check this out!" and pulled it out of the bag. I cannot believe I was that afraid of a stupid burnt chip. I feel like such a dork.
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Posted by: anonymous
2014-04-18 01:43:14
ID: 2719
You're not alone in not wanting to make the big splash with others listening. If it's a single toilet public bathroom, turn the water on to muffle your bathroom noises. If there are several stalls I bring in something paper I can crumple to mask the noise. It just sounds like I'm unwrapping a pad which is actually where I got the idea. You can also put a couple of big wads of TP in the toilet before you go that will muffle the splash. Just a few helpful hints, because, hey, when ya gotta go ya gotta go.
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Posted by: anonymous
2014-04-17 23:35:19
ID: 2717
I told my doctor that I've had what others have told me are panic attacks (never had them before, so didn't know). He said he can put me on antidepressants. My mom was on antidepressants (Valium, I think) when I was young, and I DO NOT want to act/feel like she did. Why would antidepressants be prescribed for panic attacks? This is all new to me, so any answers would be appreciated.
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Posted by: anonymous
2014-04-17 21:45:08
ID: 2715
2nd interview with food truck startup went great. Basically was an informal talk with founder about their needs are and how I can fit in. Now just waiting to hear back officially. Fingers crossed it went as well as I thought.
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