Dysthymia (most of my life) and atypical depression (no discernible reason for onset) for over 5 years. My memory has become unreliable. I sit for hours staring at nothing and don't realize a whole day has passed until my husband comes home. 3 years of going through drug after drug and therapy. I feel worse than ever. I quit med school, after working for 13 years to get there. I take just enough hours at work to pay bills. If I'm not working, I'm sleeping. We're moving across the continent in 3wks, and I haven't so much as cleaned my house in months. I feel so worthless, but just getting dressed takes so much effort that I feel like I've just run a mile. I've gained back 40lbs in the last 6 mos. I'm not at the bottom, but I think I see it around the corner, and I am so scared.