I had a dream last night that I was getting called out by an old friend for missing her wedding (which I did- and it was shitty). She was ripping me a new one and I knew I deserved it, but in the middle of what she was saying I got up, walked outside and lit a cigarette. She followed me outside, but she just got in her car, slammed the door, and drove off. And I stood there all by myself, smoking. Feeling completely and deservedly terrible. I woke up feeling all guilty and bad. But- I still have not smoked.