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Posted by: anonymous
2020-06-21 22:41:23
ID: 64695
Father's Day was so sad this year. I couldn't go down to visit my dad and we had to spend the day with DH's parents and his racist dad. Luckily, we avoided the topic, but I know he feels the way he feels and it makes it extremely hard for me to be around him. Thank goodness DH and his siblings aren't the same way, but they've all said it was hard to unlearn all that nonsense.
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Posted by: anonymous
2020-06-21 22:36:44
ID: 64692
In response to a confession. I've never been tested for ADHD, but my two siblings and my dad all have it, so it's not entirely out of the realm of possibility that I have it too. I was also diagnosed with AvPD and I have horrible self esteem because I have zero attention span to ever get better at things, so I just don't do anything and feel like crap about myself. I really think I want to look into treatment and/or therapy if it turns out I do have ADHD because you are right--very few people know about AvPD and how to treat it. It's a horrible life to live, I will agree.
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Posted by: anonymous
2020-06-21 17:25:59
ID: 64689
I was just assessed for adult ADHD and it was confirmed. What blew my fucking mind was being a strong suspected case of avoidant personality disorder. I thought I was just socially anxious but it makes absolute sense. My doctor told me ADHD often causes anxiety and anxiety can lead to strong avoidant symptoms, so with being treated for the ADHD he hopes some of that will clear up. I hope so too, because AvPD seems like one of those overlooked and poorly understood disorders that nobody seems to have much of a clue how to treat, and frankly living with this type of brutally low self esteem, loneliness, tendency towards shallow relationships and fear of rejection in relationships forever sounds like a living hell. Being lonely scares the shit out of me way more even than the increased chance of accidental death that people with ADHD risk. I'd rather die loved than live lonely.
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Posted by: anonymous
2020-06-21 01:57:30
ID: 64670
In response to a confession. White coat syndrome is a good reason to check your bp at home. That way, you can show your md it's normal outside of a stressful medical environment.
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Posted by: anonymous
2020-06-21 00:13:00
ID: 64678
In response to a confession. This is exactly why I buy clothes thrifted or at consignment stores and don't worry about trying to re-sell them. The nutjobs out there who will try to haggle you down to unreasonable prices are crazy--we tried to sell our car, which was old but mechanically reliable, for a measly $800 and people wanted to give us $100 for it, which was less than we'd get for scrap. Like, really people??
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Posted by: anonymous
2020-06-20 23:59:17
ID: 64673
Know what I hate? When people at the supermarket bitch to the cashiers about products being out of stock or discontinued. Like the cashier has any control over that. I used to hate when I worked as a grocery store cashier and people would demand to know why there wasn't their favorite flavor of yogurt anymore.
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Posted by: anonymous
2020-06-20 22:39:57
ID: 64672
Last week, I gave myself bangs and those turned out well and cut a tiny bit off my hair like 1/2inch. My bangs grew fast this past week, so I was constantly trimming it and thinning it so it looked more like side swept bangs. It's been so hot in CA and I've thinking about a haircut. Watched a YT video and it seemed really easy to do. I did it today and cut about 2-2.5 inches off. Now it's a little below my shoulders. Then busted out my straightener to add some beachy waves even though I have nowhere to go. lol I'm really happy at how it turned out. I think I did a great job for cutting my hair the first time and want to keep it up. It feels good to be independent in this way and definitely will save money in the long run.
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Posted by: anonymous
2020-06-20 21:01:11
ID: 64671
H: "find out when such and such closes." Me: makes phone call to confirm SUPER EASY google, in my best CS voice: "hey! What time do y'all close today? 5? Thanks!!" H: "That was so rude how you asked that!" Me: "In what way?" "I don't know. You just sounded rude." Wtf.
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Posted by: anonymous
2020-06-20 18:21:12
ID: 64668
This whole unemployment thing has been CRAZY. I'm eligible for both types because hours were cut at my job and also because I was supposed to start a new job April 27. I was patient with the approval process, but then once I was approved, I still couldn't claim. It took three weeks of trying during the specific times assigned to my SSN. Finally I was able to claim, AND THEN it said I couldn't because my PIN was incorrect. I reset it to the same damn one. Then when I put in my earned wages, it changed it. For example, one week I made $240 but it changed it to $285, so my benefit amount goes down. Another week was $165, it changed to $175. (Maybe they have some calculations regarding p/t wages but IDK.) THEN it says the money will be deposited into my debit card account. When I opened my claim, I chose direct deposit, NOT debit card! And poor ds filed weeks before me and still hasn't been approved. grrr
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Posted by: anonymous
2020-06-20 17:05:12
ID: 64667
In response to a confession. I get white coat syndrome at every Dr visit I go to, alway have.. My BP top number sometimes get up in the 140s..i always thought that was pretty high. Wow, it can really go up to 180 due to nerves? Good to know
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