Stream Of Consciousness
Posted by: anonymous
2022-08-15 19:17:36
ID: 68492
I'm partially caring for the landlord's dogs while she's on vacation. Her son also comes over to help along with the other housemate. When he comes, the whole house turns into a freakin' mess. The other housemate is home and supposed to care for them, too. I leave for the weekend and come home to find their water bowls completely dry, dirty dishes everywhere and can't find the leash to take them on a walk them. WTF! What were they doing all weekend?!?!
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Posted by: anonymous
2022-08-04 15:04:59
ID: 68484
Not to mention her awful handling when she got Covid. She's really been something else and living her has been way more stressful that I need.
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Posted by: anonymous
2022-08-04 14:56:14
ID: 68483
I can't wait to move out of here when my lease ends in 2 months. Landlord has been such a toxic Debbie Downer about everything, I have never lived with such a toxic landlord. She had an outburst last weekend and never once apologized for it, but tried to blame me. She has anger issues, I've seen her get mad at her aging dogs. Thank god she's going out of country Monday for 1 month. I'm having a celebration dinner.
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Posted by: anonymous
2022-08-04 12:54:19
ID: 68480
In response to a confession. I don't have advice for you because this is me too. Different trauma but wow, that moment when you realize that your entire personality is basically trauma response. I have no clue what you should do. I'm just trying to view myself through that lens so I can at least try to be aware of this type of response as it's happening. If you figure it out, let me know. I think the worst part is seeing what it's done to my kids. My son is just like me and it makes me pretty sad. I wanted more for him. My daughter? She's too young for me to see for sure how my personal sh*t has affected her. I'm sure I screwed her up too. Time will tell.
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Posted by: anonymous
2022-08-03 16:47:45
ID: 68478
When we got married he was abusive, had no interest in parenting the child we got married for, worked all the time, and generally hated us. I picked up the slack, worked, raised our son, compensated for all his disinterest, and supported him. I stayed through everything bc I thought that was what you were supposed to do. Now, with 2 kids, he's accusing me of never allowing him to parent, never letting him speak, never trusting him. And he's right. I dont. In trying to protect my kids, be the opposite of my mother, and also encourage and support this man who I couldn't see didn't want me or us, I took away any respect he had for himself and any respect the kids had for him. At the end of the day, I am the cause of his issues, my issues, and my kids issues. By trying to do and be everything that everyone else needed because it took me 15 years to realize that all of me is a trauma response and I am not a real person. So where the hell do I go now? What do I do? How do I fix any of this?
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Posted by: anonymous
2022-08-03 15:25:56
ID: 68477
Everybody acting up at one time. They all seem to know when I'm at my lowest and suddenly come out of the woodwork expecting me to do the emotional work to help them get back on their feet. I don't have any more to give, my cup is past empty. Come back another day or stay mad, IDGAF.
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Posted by: anonymous
2022-08-02 00:04:09
ID: 68474
The Botox clinic owner seems to understand that they really screwed up. She gave me a full refund and had their medical director call me to discuss my options and answer my questions. The medical director did not minimize my concerns and told me the nurse practitioner was wrong to tell me that the injection of Dysport would be a quick fix. She called in a prescription for an eye drop that might help, no charge and was clear that it might not help. When I asked if I could have a copy of the release I had signed as well as my treatment record she said absolutely. She said my drooping eyelid would start to get better in two weeks but would probably take two months to get completely better. At least she was honest. And kind, unlike the clinic owner. I am never doing this again!
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Posted by: anonymous
2022-07-30 22:00:18
ID: 68471
Face is still lopsided from Botox. Too depressed to get out of bed.
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Posted by: anonymous
2022-07-29 20:57:41
ID: 68469
Two weeks after botox I noticed that one eyebrow looked lower than the other. I thought it was my imagination but they told me to come back in two weeks if I had "uneven results." I thought that meant it might work on one side more than the other which is also true- on the side where my eyebrow is higher I still have forehead wrinkles. I went back in and they injected me with dysport which they said would "even me out" by raising my one eyebrow. Nothing about the fact that I still have wrinkles on one side. This is supposed to be the best place around, in an expensive suburb in another county. I don't even want to leave the house looking like this. I just called them and said that if this doesn't work in three days to correct the situation they are going to refund my money! I'm so depressed, embarrassed, and anxious right now. I want to cry.
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Posted by: anonymous
2022-07-27 16:00:50
ID: 68466
Somehow never enough and yet also too much. If I could guarantee it would work, I would off myself right now. I'm sick of living with myself knowing I'll never be anything but a temporary space filler.
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