I'm pretty sure I am a misanthrope. I can't even stand myself. I've been recently diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder, which stems likely from a childhood of severe bullying due to my appearance and the fact that I never did fit in with my peers. This has led me to not like forming relationships with people and just a general distrust of everyone. I became a huge perfectionist to myself thinking that if I were just a really good person, people would like me. But that didn't happen and I don't make friends easily because I don't like other people's shortcomings or for them to point out mine. I hate that I'm like this.