I have been facing depression and anxiety with a tendency towards OCD. I keep this quiet and don't tell everyone.I don't want anyone knowing what is wrong with me because I don't want to be pitied. It takes all I have to do to keep my cool and keep to my comfort methods. The one time I did disclose to a friend, she totally shut me down by trying to tell me that what I am going through is nothing compared to her mental history. I felt like she was competing with me over something I don't want to deal with but have to. I got sick of her constant Facebook posts about her issues and every conversation surrounding her problems not just mentally but telling me sexual secrets of her husband.Whenever she got into a fight with her husband (at my house) or said something rude, she would get quiet and say "Whoa, there is my anxiety again." It got to be too much that I realized that I had to cut her off for my own sanity. I feel like a bad friend but I just can't be friends with someone who uses her mental issues as an excuse for her bad behavior.

Smug DB and SIL just had their first little one. Rumor has it baby isn't sleeping well or breast feeding well and only likes to be held. They have always been so smug and judgemental toward me and other parents, I am hoping this continues so they can finally get the come-uppence they have earned. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know, I'm gonna burn in Hell for this...WHO CARES? TOTALLY WORTH IT!!!!!!!

I wish I could hate my mother. I forgot, again, that I cant be friends with her. I have to be the submissive, emotionally abused and manipulates daughter that she tries to live vicariously through. I'm an adult, with my own child, and I still feel like a 12 yr old inside. I'm not mentally ready for anything past 7th grade. I need help. I hte her guilt trips, I hate the way she treats me, but I can't make myself cut her out of my life. I'm afraid.