No one knows what it's like to be you but your confession made me really sad. I'm the writer of the most horrid confessions on here, including the sobbing DD strep throat one. Most of my confessions involve sobbing. 10 years of shit marriage with DH who flat out said he didn't care if I suffered. I am not saying this to have a shit contest. What I read in your confession is boredom, just flat day to day sameness. You describe your DH as a good guy. So it sounds like he might be open to working with you to trying new things in your marriage. Lifetime marriages are a marathon so there are going to be smooth sailing (or boring) times. If you leave you will still have the $50k salary. What about college tuition and weddings? Will you be really better off without DH? When you're 70 will you look back and be happy you ditched that bastard loser? Or wish you hadn't? I hope you don't take offense to any of this. It just hurt my heart to read of a perfectly workable, better than workable ..

I also live in a bit of an affluent area, and they do the same thing here - but they flip-flop. Someone will post about it, and tons of people say, "Post a picture!" They do, and are then shamed for it. Right now our issue is a group of kids on bikes, "swerving." That is, they purposely bike towards a car and swerve out of the way at the last minute. Or will be riding parallel and act like they're going to cut in front, giving the driver a heart attack. Everyone says, "Post their pics so we can find the parents and shame them!" The other day a guy posted a pic of a group of kids on their bikes, saying, "Parents, if you recognize your kids, PM me. I've already spoken to the police." People went nuts saying it was an invasion of privacy. Then another guy posts a pic of himself with other kids on bikes and says, "Such a respectful group of kids, I don't know what you are all talking about." UM those weren't the same kids!!! I say, shame them all!

So the new server job... I think I'm cool with it. I'm only going to work Fridays and Saturdays. Last Friday I averaged $15/hr and Saturday I averaged $22/hr. And I've already lost 5lbs. I think as I get better at it, I'll make more money too. It's just so funny to me because I've never had to be so fake in my life. I fake-like my coworkers (I'm not there to make friends, and they ALL talk shit behind each other's backs) and I fake-like the customers. (I'm not a people person and I couldn't care less about any of it) .... but I am getting better and better at being whole-heartedly full of shit and fake smiles.

Why would you do that to me? I didn't do anything to you to do what you did. You broke my heart. But I'm still so in love with you.

Ugh, I'm right there with you. I look at pictures of dh and I when we got together (not even 10 years ago!) and he's so handsome. We both put on weight because he likes to cook/eat hearty meals, and we like to eat out. But while I've worked hard to lose the weight, he keeps piling on more. It goes only to his stomach and face; his legs and arms are still relatively thin. He literally looks 9 months pregnant. We'll have the house to ourselves and I'll think, cool, we can have sex, and it's the same thing as you - he's lying on the couch and his big stomach is poking out from his shirt. Instant turn-off. He's made light-hearted jokes about it, and says that being fat means that he's happy in our relationship. He also doesn't understand how me being overweight makes me UNhappy.

Believe it or not, it's still a big thing. If a male star is considered a heartthrob with a huge female following, they (and directors/producers) know that they will bring in big money at the box office and in residuals. Said gay star comes out of the closet, and he loses his fan base, credibility, recognition, and ultimately, money - for everyone. I have several close friends and family in the industry. If you had any idea how many BIG male stars are actually gay...

It's breaking my heart watching ds, every time he gets a letter saying that he didn't get a college scholarship. (He's going to community college for two years and then transferring to a university.) He's not getting them because he has no extra-curriculars. He has no ECs because his father was so mad that I got custody, that he wouldn't let ds do anything if it interfered with his visitation time. Not even school-related sports, UNLESS ds participated in things in his father's community as well (about an hour away), and he would have to play every single game, even on my weekends. Ds didn't want to be getting up early on weekends at home to make that drive and play for hours. This was all to get back at me. I let go of my hate for my ex years ago, but it's boiling up again.

A year ago today, we broke up. I'm just imagining the place I was in which felt stifled, sad, and something just didn't feel right about us. I still feel sad thinking about the loss especially so around this time, but I think I gained so much more. Like something inside me has been lifted. I'm going to continue healing, letting go, and moving on. To those suffering through grief and heartbreak, trust in yourself that things will get better. One day at time. <3

Saw Spin guy in class today. There was a bit of interaction this time because we had an amazing sub that added some light hearted convos to her class. I actually heard him speak to the instructor, we made eye contact a coupe times, and he passed me the cleaning bottle spray at the end class. Lol

I know a woman who is rich and gorgeous. She's always posting pics of her latest vacation. Her husband is handsome. Her kids are adorable. She's a sweetheart and she has a great life. I'm sure plenty of people would love to think of her as having a secret miserable existence, but she's pretty awesome. Y'all sound jealous. Quit projecting.