Living with my bipolar spouse is hell. I want to leave but feel so guilty. She is usually self centered and a drama queen. I am exhausted.

My DH is having a total mental breakdown right now. He's bipolar and has been manic since Thursday. It's literally scaring the shit out of me. I finally took him to the ER today and they gave him a bunch of sedatives and he's finally asleep. He's been awake pretty much nonstop since Thursday night and he hasn't eaten a thing since then. He told me I might have to start acting more like his caregiver. I'm only 32. I don't know if I'm ready for that.

I don't thin people with bipolar, schizophrenia or other severe mental illness should have kids.

DH has a history of bipolar. He refuses to get help. I don't how much more of this I can take.Some days he is fine, some not too bad, some horrible. Last week he argued with me at 630am when I had a sore throat and a cough. I had mentioned that maybe his son from his first marriage should not visit this weekend because I dont want to get him sick. He "Let me know right now so I can text (exdw) now because if I wait till Friday she wlll be pissed" It would have been nice if he just had the common effing sense to tell her I was sick and its best I dont get his son sick and have him next weekend instead. So I ended up saying no and feeling like the bad guy. Today he went to Taco Bell and didin't get me anything. He knew I hadnt eaten lunch yet. I told him it would it would have been nice if he called and asked if I wanted something. He told me he wasn't going to "let me guilt him" and went in the other room to eat.. We were both off work today. I am going to ask my boss if I can switch my day off next week to a day when DH will be working. We have only been married 3 years.I think about leaving him then remember the days when he is fine and loving. The day I had the sore throat I was very close to mentioning divorce. My heart is breaking, but at the same time, I wonder what my life would be like without him, and all the exdw/stepson drama (he jumps when she says to).

DH is bipolar and, unbeknownst to me, went off his medication. He got in one of his manic phases and went off to me about how great of an employee he is and how his boss sucks and so does everyone else he works with. The next day, he kind of "lost it" and started ranting at his boss, telling him to wipe the smirk off his face, etc. I get so afraid when this sort of thing happens. I wish he'd go back on his meds.

Marriage counseling post from yesterday is mine. It's not depression or bipolar or anything else. It's that he got caught having an affair and simply doesn't want to stop talking to her, but still wants to be with me. He wants the best of both worlds. Doesn't want me to be hurt by it, so he lies. The counselor said it doesn't sound like we have EVER had a committed relationship... been together almost 8 years. How sad is that. She wants me to buy the book "NOT Just Friends" by Sharon Glass, and for us to both read it and highlight portions (in different colors). We're also supposed to make a "resentment list." I doubt he'll even bother.

My bipolar sister and I have always had a pretty good relationship, until recently, when we had a small disagreement...which she turned into a big dramatic deal and basically cut off contact with me until she could "sort it out" in her own head. After a bit, I got worried because no one in the family had really talked to her since then, and no one knew what she was up to or how she was doing. No one else was a bit worried...why? I realized it was because she had basically done the same thing to them all, one by one...and no one really has a relationship with her anymore. I was pretty much the only one left. It sucks, and I miss her. She knows I am willing to talk things through and mend the relationship. Her life is full of examples of self-sabotage...and I guess this is just the latest chapter. She's a good person inside, though, and I know there's a huge part of her that just can't help it...but it's so frustrating to me! (Wow, no character limit on the new truu! Thanks for letting me write my minibook!)