I had a dream about my high school crush for the third night this week. I didn't even know him that well, I was just incredibly infatuated. I was smart enough to recognize it after a while. I've had recurring dreams about him over the years. I really wish they would stop. They seem to happen at the weirdest times, mostly when I'm not even thinking about him.

If anxiety were logical I guess it wouldn't really anxiety would it? But I wish I didn't get so sick to my stomach and anxious all the time over stuff other people don't worry about at all. My husband says I bring it on myself and it's deliberate but it really isn't. Asking me to control my random thoughts and worries is like asking someone to control their dreams... Not possible.

When people say a fetus isn't a baby, I want to slap them silly. I had a miscarriage at ten weeks. That wasn't a fetus or a bundle of tissue. That was my Joey. We picked that nickname as soon as we found out we were pregnant. I had hopes and dreams for that baby. I was so excited to be a mom for the first time. A baby is always a baby.A baby being unwanted does not make it less than a baby. Sorry if calling it a fetus helps you sleep at night but it has the same DNA at conception as at birth.

LIB and I are calling it quits. It's difficult but what's even sadder to me is knowing that we can never be friends. I considered him my best friend for over 10 years but he has to be part of my past. It's so hard knowing that this person who has shared so much of my life, dreams and secrets is gone from my life. I feel so empty but I'd be lying to myself to think we could be just friends.

You probably at your Grandmother's house in those dreams *because* you didn't feel safe there. :(

I had a dream last night that I was having sex with Zac Efron. He actually liked bigger girls and asked me to be his girlfriend. I said yes but I was also some sort of secret agent assassin with my best friend. It was so wierd. Zac had a smaller penis but he was so sweet lol. My dreams are always so vivid and colorful and they always stay with me for the rest of the day.

Some of my more senior coworkers just do their job and go home and don't think about work stuff while they're off. Me, I tend to worry and stress and even have dreams about work. Ugh, so exhausting. I made a mistake today and I'm sure it will come back to haunt me. I keep dwelling on one other thing that I may have forgotten to do. These things are grinding at me and making me feel sick. I want to leave work and not think about it, but everything goes round and round in my head the rest of the evening. I want to scream!

I was/am seriously sad about Robin Williams dying. I grew up watching his movies. My favorites were Hook, Aladdin, and Mrs. Doubtfire, although I enjoyed pretty much every movie he was in. I loved him in Death To Smoochy! Aside from the movies though, he really seemed like an amazingly generous, kind person. I never in my wildest dreams would have expected this to happen. Normally I don't really care about celebs at all, but this hit me pretty hard. Seems like it hit a lot of people really hard. At least I know I am not alone. RIP Robin Williams <3

Texting men and discussing sexual dreams they have about you is beyond flirting.

I have 2 kids and wish I was CF. Before anyone says I had options when I got pregnant, no I truly didn't. I applied for medicaid in a state that makes abortion illegal, I tried to get medicaid to pay for my abortion and the medicaid in the republican state I lived in would not cover it. I had no money to cover it and the father of my kids is 100% pro life, would not pay for the abortion and would not drive me there so I could get it done and I didn't know anyone who would me drive there. Called Planned Parenthood in the hopes of them helping me and they said since I was on medicaid I did not qualify for help and I would have to pay for it myself, I pleaded with them but they said even if I didn't have medicaid I'd still have to pay for some of it, I wasn't working and my ex would not give me any money, that's how controlling and abusive he was. Planned Parenthood also said they did not offer rides to their facility so I'd have to figure out a way to get there and there was no way my ex would pay for it or even allow me to have it done. I think my ex wanted to get me pregnant to trap me so I couldn't leave cause I tried to leave him before and then all of a sudden I'm pregnant, I always told him I did not want kids that I wanted to be CF. Go figure and now he's pretty much an uninvolved father with the kids and we're no longer together, I feel like he wanted make my life hell by making me have kids. He pays a small amount in CS, certainly not enough for me to cover his half fairly for child related expenses, his visits are not regular so he only sees the kids when he wants which is almost never. I'm resentful everyday towards my kids and I'm so burnt out. Most of the time I think about ending it all cause I'm so broke, my life revolves around my kids which means shitty and low paying jobs, I have no social life, no friends, no family, had to put all my hopes and dreams on hold to be a mom. I hate this. I just want my life to end and to come back in a different life where this won't happen to me. I hate my ex for doing this to me, I resent my kids but I do love them but sometimes I hate them even though it's not their fault, I know it's not their fault. I feel bad for them, they should have been born to parents who wanted them and could afford them.