We live in Florida. We have (and love) visitors throughout the winter. Some help with meals and take us out to eat; some have sent flowers as a thank you….then there’s the current visitors. No help, no offers to pay for meals, and I even got a request to do laundry today. The excuse? ‘We’re on vacation, which means we just get to hang out and do nothing.’ I think I can safely say that this will be their last vacation at our house.

Boss doesn't really do social media, but I stalked his wife's Facebook page. Pathetic, I know. And she seems absolutely lovely, inside and out. Dammit.

The Doctor said there's nothing wrong with me. I am 100% not surprised. In my experience if they can't prescribe a pill or do a surgery they don't want to deal with you. I told her I was having anxiety over mysterious weight loss and I swear to god she rolled her eyes. Told me at my age (48), any anxiety is probably pre-menopausal. GOD how I love doctors. My fucking favorite. And I paid $400 for the appointment and a lab test. For her to tell me I'm old and roll her eyes at me. On a happier note, I have been able to get up to 115lbs and stay there for a few weeks. And I bought new underwear that actually fit and that actually makes me feel WAY more normal. LOL. Loose underwear just makes you feel less than human somehow.

Panic attacks really suck. I'm glad I have a supportive family, and now a good therapist. But even with so much love and guidance, these things are trying to take over my life.

Congrats! That is very exciting for your son and he will do great in the community it sounds like. I did a similar program in college and LOVED the experience. I'm still in touch with friends I made from the program many, many years later!

Oh, and I also had a very sexy dream about Boss last night. Not the first time, but love when that happens.

My husband made a salad last night and used bolted cilantro from our garden. He doesn't know that bolted cilantro is essentially fennel. So.... he just hates fennel (always has) and made a salad with a whole lot of fennel flavor... and LOVED it. I swear you can't make this shit up. I guess it's only when I use fennel that he hates it. I love fennel and never use it because of him. Well... THAT'S over.

My mom is nuts- and I am a horrid person. I wish she would just disappear off the face of the planet. She's manipulative and crazy. My H hates her and refuses to entertain her and stays mad at me when I allow her a little contact. My kids love her and don't understand why I avoid interaction with her, so they stay upset with me. I wish I had either cut her off before I had kids or covered up for her so I wouldn't have to deal with her, H, and my kids all being upset with me for shit I'm not at fault for. Im 100% guilty of choosing the cowards way out by avoiding it. I can't abandon her, I don't know why. I don't contact her much, just enough to keep her from showing up at my house even though I've made it as clear as I can that she isn't welcome here. I feel so guilty 24/7 for trying to protect myself, and my H doesnt help bc he's constantly berating me for feeling guilty about it. I wish I didn't know either of them. I don't know how to face them and I don't want to. I just want peace

I love you AJ. I’m so in love with you I can’t stand it. I wish you were by my side as my husband. I miss you so much and I miss your voice. I wish you were here.

Tom Cruise really does have a winning smile. Saw the new Top Gun movie last week and I gotta say, I loved it! Young top guns challenging the oldie but still smoldering Cruise in the skies with powerful machinery. It was a feel good movie I saw with my dad (who has early stages of the "olds"). Warning, be prepared for that winning smile every 10 minutes of the movie, because there is lots of it!