I blew it with my FWB. I hope he doesn't think I am insane that I actually sent him a thank you letter in the mail. He was my first since my husband left me. He made me feel special and wanted. Even if I never see him again. I will be forever grateful for that. After years of being told I am nothing and not worthy of love he made me feel so much better. Of course me being my own worst enemy ruined it. Better luck next time, right?

Tonights dinner for one was an accomplishment. I tackled Julia Child's Beef Bourguignon!!! Took forever. Need someone to share with. It's too good to feed the dogs. Dinner party anyone?

So grateful to have my skates back on my feet. Roller derby forever!

Wait, wait, wait... you are complaining you are broke, and neither of you have jobs, and it's so bad... but now you are eating heaping platefuls of lobster, going to the theatre, and shopping at one of the most expensive stores in the state... girl just stop with your lies. You came crying to me about his years of affairs, how he pretended like you didn't exist to all these women... now you act like the 2 of you are more in love than forever. Your whole life is just fake. I don't know what to believe. You went from being the most reasonable, sane, mature person I knew to a big disappointment.

I love sex. I think about it all the time. Then, when the time comes with DH, I have no desire. The sexual chemistry is gone and has been for a few years now, despite my attempts to change that. I think for him, he doesn't know any different and sex is sex. Our relationship is really gray otherwise and we have kids, but I need sex and I need good sex. I just can't imagine this bring it forever :(

Kind of bummed out that my car finally died yesterday. It was junk yard bound but I decided to drive it until it goes. It died on the interstate yesterday. We got it to my Mom's which was a couple blocks away thankfully. I'm sitting at home, feel antsy, I'm hating it. I feel stuck I live in the country so can't just walk anywhere. My BF has a old manual but it's horrible and is a pain. So I'm stuck depending on him right now. He takes forever to get ready. I hate not being able to just do what I want or need to do, it's only been a day. I can't depend on others it makes me nuts. But it's not like I need to go anywhere. If my car was outside and I knew I could go if I wanted I would be fine.

I think we are going to see our forever house today. I know that we aren't quite ready to move......but I feel like this is the "One" we could live in for a very,very long time, definitely until DS8/DS6 are grown. It's the perfect price, layout, location, turn key. I am so torn right now......I wish the universe would just give me a sign!!

I'm a lesbian. I've always been a lesbian. I'm married to a man and we have two children. I love him and I ddon't want to hurt my kids. But how can I live like this forever?

I'm having serious issues with one of my kids right now, and I don't want anyone to know. I'm not ashamed of my kid, people make mistakes you know? But if people found out about this it would affect their reputation- probably forever and in a significant way. I just want us to be able to deal with this privately and no one to ever find out.

DH and I won't stay married forever. We are good people, good friends and great parents, but not in love. I know that we won't last through life together after our kids need us and I have a very strong feeling that when that time comes I'll feel such a different happiness and content that I'll wish I had ended it so much sooner.