Oh, and seeing your picture just put me into such a bad mood. Also sad. My heart hurts today. I hope i can shake this feeling, my husband already asked if anything was bothering me.

This is my FIL. He's not a bad person, but wet-blanket is a good description. I really feel for my MIL. She raised her 3 kids, but she still has him, which is basically a 4th kid that will never going to leave home. She deserves a break. Honestly, I think if she new he was going to live this long (he has a host of heath problems), she would have divorced him a long time ago. Now she won't because she does't want to burden her kids with him, because he would end up with one of them.

Me: "6 is feeling under the weather, I think I'm going to take him to the doctor." H:"you're overreacting, just let it run its course, he's fine." Then me: "6 is complaining of not feeling well, but I think I'm going to wait a couple of days to see if it's really bad." H: "oh my gosh, how dare you not immediately make an appointment?? What if something is seriousy wrong?! Why are you such a loser parent?" Im tired of having to justify my parenting to the only person on earth that should be my teammate.

I’ve watched more of the trial than I care to admit, and Amber Heard is hurting the MeToo movement badly. She’s lying about being abused and she had photos photoshopped. He’s suing for defamation and she’s just trying to make him look bad. Never cared for him one way or another, and I never heard of her before all of this, but she’s clearly a bad actress.

Replying to cocopop, no there's nobody. My husband thinks therapy is a waste of money. My mom is an emotionally abusive narcissist and my dad died last year. My siblings are far away or irresponsible and i have no friends. I'm really bad at making friends. I'm looking into online therapy options anyway. I can't afford to stay like this and i don't really know what to do.

I sat down and actually ran all the numbers and did all the math. 2 years. I'll be able to leave my husband in 2 years. It's not an abusive situation or anything, so I'm not in danger. He's just well, a man. I'm tired of doing everything. He's not a bad person. But he's basically just here. Taking up space. A walking paycheck. He contributes nothing else. He doesn't engage with anyone, including the kids. I'm done. My youngest will leave for college, and I'll leave to start a new life. He'll be devastated, but oh well. Been telling him this for 20 years and he's done absolutely nothing to change it. I have 2 daughters and we're very close. They both plan on college out of state near my family (totally their choice). I'll settle near them. We'll live happily ever after without him.

I can't stay at the house I'm renting a room from because we're having a bug issue and the landlord is effin' out of country. Don't know when he will return. I can stay at my parents nearby for only a few days before I get triggered and we all annoy each other. Then I feel bad for being snappy. I know it's because I have this stressful situation for almost a month now and I'm more impatient and frustrated. UGH, life...I feel like I've gotten lemons for months with things coming up that throwing me off balance. When will this get better?

I'm tired of students hitting me. For real. If you're thinking, "Why are you letting them hit you?" come down here and try to stop them. I'm not LETTING them do anything. This year's kindergarteners are DIFFERENT and I have never in ten years of teaching seen so much outrageous behavior. Some parents want to scream that it's because of masks or because the big bad teachers union kept the schools closed during a GLOBAL PANDEMIC- I swear some of these children are such a mess because they spent more time with THEIR PARENTS last year. I never say this but some of these folks need to PARENT THEIR CHILDREN. There are kids who will straight up say, "I don't want to!" if you ask them to participate in learning. Where did they get this idea that this is an acceptable way to speak to adults? I love kids. I just need to vent. I got punched, kicked, and slapped in the face today. If you know a teacher, hug a teacher! We are not okay!

Last year I got sick and had to have a surgery. I don't have insurance, I don't have much money either. So I applied for assistance and got my bill reduced from 20K to 6K. That is still a LOT of money for me. And the hospital wanted $600/mo. I can't pay that. So I pay them $100/mo, but I pay every single month. I don't miss payments. They sent me to collections anyway. That hit my credit score and dropped it by 50 pts. I'm going to need to replace my car next year, so this is really bad. But I saw on the creditkarma site that I could dispute a medical collection and it couldn't hurt my score, so I did. And holy shit. It worked. The collection is still there in the details but apparently my account info couldn't be verified (I know I owe it...so... ??) so they adjusted my credit score back to where it was. Thank god. But now I'm wondering if I should even finish PAYING this? If my info can't be verified, they can't garnish me.... I know the difference between right and wrong but.....

Had my first anxiety dream about sobriety. Dreamed that I was at my aunt's house talking to my cousin. (Both of them are dead BTW) I could see there had been a party the night before and was helping to clean up but couldn't remember anything about the party and was trying to find out if I had behaved badly without admitting that I couldn't remember and was trying to stay sober. (This is especially heavy because my cousin nearly died of alcoholism before he died of cancer.) I only had one blackout my entire life, in my teens, but this dream really frightened me- the feeling of being out of control. It's probably because I'm taking a work trip and will face being around my friends while they are drinking and I will probably need to tell some people about my sobriety for the first time. It's the fear of commitment that is really the fear of failing, which is hard to admit to myself.