I'd rather be fat than be a hateful bitch that talks bad about others behind their back.

Human tragedy doesn't really make me cry anymore. I cry about dolphins and rainforests. I'm done worrying about people other than those I know personally...I'll donate and sign petitions regarding human rights until the sun comes home, but humans have fucked this world up so badly, not only is the ecosystem and all the animals screwed, but so are we. And people will whine about ivory poachers and people shooting gorillas and tigers, but most of the time those people are so poor and uneducated and are given few other choices. Rich westerners are the ones causing the real harm, the resources we use are insane. We're all headed to a literal hell on earth.

All I meant was that if one of the Duggar kids is gay, he/she wouldn't be able to be their true selves-you know, gay! Their religion prohibits and oppresses the gays. And I do believe they are instilled fear of their parents and God. so with that said, yes, that would be a miserable way to live your true life if you can't truly be who you are (gay) all in the name of God. I didn't speak about reprogramming camp, but I wouldn't put it past them to do something like that. They are very disciplined family and they must present themselves in a certain way because their religious beliefs pretty much dictate so. Their lifestyle certainly is intriguing and I sure the heck ain't jealous. But when you won't/can't let your kids be gay, that is wrong. Why would you make your child feel bad about who he/she naturally loves? Granted, this is a "what if" scenario..but it happens all the time with families that have such hard core Christian fundamentalist beliefs. Westboro Church anyone?? Let's pray the gay away!!

I think if more people focused on raising and guiding their children to be mature and respectful hard working young adults then American wouldn't be in the crap hole it is in today. With each generation it gets worse and worse. People step on others to get ahead no matter what the cost. They focus on the glory of fame and fortune rather than being a good person. No one takes responsibility for their actions anymore. If someone robs a store or gets in a fight or cheats there is always an excuse to blame it on some other factor and it is never their fault. People are lazy. They want to make big bucks but do very little or even no work at all. Everyone is too worried about having the latest phone or $500 purse or shoes instead of taking the times to sit down and enjoy what they have and teach their children to be gracious for the small things in life. Living modestly isn't bad like some make it out to be. Raising a child with manners and the ability to work hard and think for themselves says more about you than what you own.

Not that it's anyone's business (and yea, I realize by posting I am actually making it yalls business), I always wear thongs unless on my period or at home (where I go without underwear entirely). Regular panties are irritating for me. My gyno had nothing bad to say about them, so I continue. They're comfortable and I like them.

DH is very irritable when SS is here. I talked to him about it again and he finally admitted it. He is frustrated with his ex who will not share the driving at all ( we live an hour away)ever nickels and dimes him when she earns more than DH, and talks to him like he is a piece of garbage . He is frustrated with SS who is very dramatic and immature emotionally for his age and has to be told over and over and over and over again like a toddler to do something. DH got nasty with me yesterday for no reason. DH switched the weekends so we don't have to have SS for Memorial Day weekend. I haven't had a 3 day weekend in over a year and DH and I don't want any problems. SS and his nasty mother don't like it, too bad.

I found a purse in the bathroom at work today. It was a little Bebe purse, and it was unzipped, with loose cash and credit cards clearly visible. I dropped it off at the receptionists desk. I feel kind of bad leaving her to deal with it, but I was going into a meeting.

I was messed up for the longest time. I was a very bitter and mean person on the outside but on the inside I was hurting and very lonely. I was in a bad place in my life for the longest time. I'm in a better place in my life and I'm finally happy (though lately, life has been throwing me some tough curve balls). To everyone on Truu I may have said some hurtful and mean things to, I'm sorry.

Showed my kids how I use to look before they were born. They said I use to be ugly and it really hurt my feelings. At first I didn't know why but now I think it is because that woman worked so hard on changing her diet and exercising. She got past bad days and critisism from others to become healthier. She did all this because she wanted children and now those children are laughing at her and calling her names. That woman is still me and I know they probably didn't mean to but it really hurts. I will talk to them tonight but I just needed to get it off my chest now.

I clogged the toilet at work today. I didn't mean to. I went number 2, flushed and then went to wipe and then flushed again. Apparently I used too much toilet paper as that was the reason for the clog. I saw the maintenance man come up to plunge. I feel really bad about it. If there was a plunger kept in the bathroom, I would have done it myself.