I live in a rural area. On our road, there are groups of houses in between farmland and woods. In my group, there are four of us on one side, and one house across the street. No one likes the neighbors across the street, because they are selfish and entitled. Case in point: it would have been very easy and courteous of them to let the rest of us know that they were going to set off a fuck ton of large aerial fireworks last night (which they've never done before). Not only did it scare the crap out of me to where I spilled wine all over myself, but I thought my dog was going to have a heart attack. Usually fireworks don't bother him - a few houses down the road set off smaller aerials once in a while - but they were RIGHT THERE and went on for 25 minutes.

I've been having such a good time homeschooling the kids, and I thought the kids were happy too. But they've both come to me and said they want to try to go back to school next year. Not going to lie, it broke my heart a bit. But I won't be my mother and force them to stay home. If possible, I'll send them back and go get a between school hours job and all that. I'll miss this, though.

The Zoom party was amazing tonight! Best part was surprising everyone by inviting former staff and friends to Zoombomb the meeting. We're a small group so everyone is like family. They were heartened to be involved and invited back which brought back fun memories. It felt like old times during this weird times.

Biden is openly racist. There are so many videos of him saying the N word. Neither of them are great, but Biden is the worse of the two. Trump may have a distasteful bedside manner, but he has Americas best interest at heart. Biden would sell America to Hitler for magic beans.

For all his dealing with my mom and never forcing her to get treatment for her mental issues, I love my dad tremendously. I haven't gotten to see him this year hardly at all because of COVID and because I finally had to cut my mom off for my own mental health. I just found out that he has been having congestion problems for the last couple of weeks, issues breathing, and they are testing to see if it's heart or lungs. Now I'm so angry with myself for being too weak to keep putting up with my mom so that I can talk to my dad regularly. And I don't know how to go back to regular communication because I really can't stand her. I'm so upset and I don't know what to do.

Someone commented elsewhere, “ I think we are all unfazed by crazy shit now.” I feel this so much and it’s not the good kind of crazy. It feels sinister. Guys I really need your good energy. <3 Give me hearts!! I need more hearts!!

I've been trying to do my version of an elimination diet and I started a week ago. Over the weekend I added back in some pasta, and it gave me heartburn. I never get heartburn, it wasn't even one of my issues that caused me to try this diet. Also, I went from 122 to 125 overnight. WTF? So, even though it wasn't the culprit I was looking for, I think I'mma leave it out of my diet on a more permanent basis. The only other thing so far that I've discovered I'm sensitive to is eggs. And that was a huge surprise because I always thought I tolerated eggs really well. But I immediately felt icky after eating one. This week, I'm going to try just the white, and then just the yolk to see if I can pinpoint it even more. I am really pretty worried that when I add cheese back into my diet I'll find out it's making me sick. I love cheese. Really, really love it. I'll be really sad if it causes me to feel sick.

Got thrown under the bus by my colleague again today in a meeting. I just firmly replied, "Let's try to keep this factual, and if you have an issue with me, always feel free to speak to me directly." I'm so over it with her. I sent a letter around today to be signed by the entire staff, because they just cut a teacher, and she said she objected to one word- "unconscionable." The letter read-"It is unconscionable to do this to students during a pandemic." I asked, "What word would work for you?" Mind you- this is two days after she rolled the bus under me. She said, "It's disheartening" that a teacher was let go, and the students split into three different classes. I love how her words get soft when it has to do with defending a colleague, but when it comes to attacking one, she has no problem bringing the knives out

The dance classes are bringing me so much joy right now. First time I cried during tonight's class because the instructor words were so heartfelt, honest, and real. What a powerful community of women during these weird times. It's helping me get out of bed. Thank goodness something seems to be working.

There is video footage of Biden inappropriately groping and kissing on young girls. In one part of the video he's using his fingers to rub on a little girls breast. The camera man zoomed in on it. The horrified look on some of these girls faces is heartbreaking because some of their parents aren't doing anything about it. He also says inappropriate things to them, asks their ages (on girl said she was 18 and he promptly ignored her for the younger girls behind her), and whispers in all these girls ears. Biden is a pedophile.