What if I grow old and die before I'm ever held again by anyone, ever? My heart can't take this.

In my situation Dh had been divorced 3 years and bio-mom was engaged when we met. So I didn't cause their divorce or know how she would behave once we married. She was actually really friendly and had no issues with me being around her kids until our wedding day when suddenly she wouldn't allow stepkids to be picked up by my MIL for the wedding saying she didn't want them to witness Dh make a life without them. It got even worse once I got pregnant. Her favorite thing to tell the stepkids their dad would drop them from his heart once he heard our babies heartbeat. Even her husband threatened to leave her for good when she flipped out during an exchange saying he was tired of her obsessing over her ex and she should be greatful I was good to her kids and didn't try to play mommy. I feel bad for the kids. They have to tell her what whe wants to hear or else they suffer the consequences. She coerces them into saying I'm mean or that Dh favors our toddler and my older son or she yells and calls them traitors. I do take care of them when they are with us. I won't do for my bio kids and not them just because she may be jealous. I don't discipline other than telling them to or not to do something if DH isn't present at the moment. My stepkids learned a long time ago not to mention anything they did fun that involved me. Unfortunately she interogates them after exchanges so the text and voicemail harassment usually begins 45minutes to an hour after exchanges once she finds out I did crafts or took them to the park or we stayed home and watched movies or played board games as a family. Her opinion is that me and my bios should be nowhere around during visitation.

Maybe the reason biomom doesn't like you, is because you're the (deleted)who helped break up her marriage. And now you want to.pretend to care about the children? Or maybe it's because you call her a cuntbag. Or maybe it's because you seem to think her children aren't supposed to be her children while they're' with their father? Or maybe it's because you have control issues. (Admin: This person could just be baiting. No one needs to have a heart attack responding. This confession does not identify anyone.)

I don't feel right. Something is just off. How do you know if you're having a dizzy spell when you sit in a chair at a desk all day? I wonder what high blood pressure feels like, or low blood pressure. Or irregular heartbeat or something. Something is just wrong today. Just random intermittent fogginess. Could this be a PMS symptom? Ugh.

I thought I was getting over my soon to be ex H, saw him at the grocery store with his new girlfriend and my heart broke all over again. It's been almost a year, when am I going to be able to move on? I haven't even considered dating because I don't want anyone but him. I feel so pathetic.

While you all get peeved about there/their/they're, I am upset over the make a heart with your fingers thing. So dumb. Even for the teen girls.

When I tell people I am dating a black man, no one cares. When I tell people I am dating a woman, they say they are supportive and I should follow my heart. When I tell people I am dating both (in a long term poly relationship), they say it is gross and that they could never think of living that way.

Does anyone else watch Suze Orman's show? She always insists that everyone have at least 8 months' worth of expenses saved in case of an emergency--that means 8 mortgage payments, enough money for food and gas and bills for 8 months, etc. I've always taken that advice to heart and DH and I always keep that much in liquid savings so we can get at it if unemployment happens, but I always get the sense that we don't have nearly enough money whenever I watch her show. She makes people feel so shitty for having "only" $30K saved if they want to buy something that costs $1K -$2K.

I'm not in a very good place right now. I'm middle aged and going through a horrible breakup. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about my heartbreak because everyone is saying "it's for the best", I feel like I have to walk around and put on a happy face so no one else is uncomfortable. Got tired of that so now I sit at home all weekend watching tv alone. My life consists of going to work and being home alone. I'm scared to even think about dating again - not sure I would even be able to find someone. I have nothing to look forward to. I don't know how much longer I can just exist.

I joined the PTA b/c I was tired of the same 4 people running everything (and the cliquish/rude issue) and a friend told me to put up or shut up when a position came open! Our PTA has purposefully recruited working parents, dads, members who reflect the make up of our community (i.e. we aren't all Caucasian, and we aren't all originally from this community). We are not all friends. We talk at our meetings about the importance of welcoming people to PTA, and that PTA is all parents. I am introverted, but have a smile and a hello for every parent I see. And...the administration, which is full of people who are from here for several generations (because that is how the hiring works), hates us. They wanted the same old, same old, because that is part of their clique. I confess I am so disheartened by this experience, that once my term is up, I am done.