My cousin has 3 little boys, wanted to "try" once more for a little girl. Well, she's having twins and today found out they're both boys! She's absolutely heartbroken that she will have 5 little boys (of course she's more happy that they're just healthy so don't comment about that please!).

Bf works full-time and is taking classes at community college. I quit my disheartening job at the school a month ago and have been picking up random gigs (massage/fitness) when I can, but otherwise do not have a steady job. I'm kinda lost about where I want to head in my career whereas he knows exactly where he wants to go. I feel insecure when we talk about the job search and quickly get defensive when he asks questions. I know it's not his intention, but sometimes they sound insensitive.

I'm positive my ds5 has a learning disability. He's having a hard time in kindergarten understanding letters and numbers and still can't write his name. He can't count to 10, he thinks a 4 is a H, he will write an H and ask what number is that. I'm crying because I just want him to be normal and not struggle. He struggles with speech and his speech lacks clarity, He came home today and told me none of the kids at school want to play with him and the boy who he thought was his best friend doesn't play with him and he told me "I don't know why he isn't my best friend anymore." My heart is breaking for him. His teachers wrote me a short note telling me my son is struggling with fine motor skills. I'm sitting here crying cause I don't know what to do. I feel so lost and my heart is hurting for my little boy.

Unfortunately, my friend who used to be fat, has turned into a fat person hater. She wanted to lose weight so badly that she got "weight loss surgery." Now, she constantly checks in when she's at the gym on Facebook, shows plenty of selfies, and apparently, she thinks everyone needs to get off Facebook and get like her. She posted such a status last night, and I wanted to bitch her ass out for it, but I chose to unfollow her and will eventually unfriend her. I am still fat, and she has distanced herself from me anyway (i.e., not really checking in with me, never sending a birthday card, though I have sent them to her, etc.), so perhaps the friendship was over a while ago. I am happy for her, and I have supported her through her trials and errors, when she was struggling with her weigh before her surgery, when she was going through chronic pain and illness, through her own heartbreak and family drama, but she can't even send me a birthday card and posts passive-aggressive Facebook statuses to the tune of "FATTY, YOU NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT AND BE LIKE ME!!!"? GIRL, BYE. HEAR THIS PEOPLE - BODY/LIFESTYLE SHAMING IS NEVER GOOD, especially when one has been the fat girl before. Shame on HER.

So proud of my DS8. He's playing flag football with some older kids due to his size. Tonight after practice he said he felt slighted by the coach, so I told him to ask his coach why. And he did. They had a conversation about DS needing to pay more attention, then he would get more play time. While I am sure he didn't want to hear it, DS took it to heart and didn't complain anymore. He is really maturing.

Phone rang today after 4 months apart. NOW he wants to work on things. NOW he realizes he gave up too easily. I still miss him but I can't look back, he broke my heart and I could never trust him not to do it again. As much as it hurt, I told him I've moved on.

I truly feel sorry for all of you ladies that had crappy childhoods. My family was average, middle-class blue collar, but we always had a warm bed, clean clothes, good food and parents that cared and supported us. We had fun birthdays and holidays. I love to reminisce about these times and the fond memories I had growing up with friends, family and at my school. My heart breaks for those of you that don't have that.

I fill my basket up on Amazon with all my heart's desires. Sometimes I just go and look at it and....sigh. It kind of feels good in a weird way. I can't afford 90% of what's in it and I end up buying maybe one thing out of 50. But it's fun.

I don't know why ex dh is being so cruel. He has told me repeatedly that he has moved-on and is not interested in trying to work on our relationship. He wouldn't even consider counseling. Every time I feel like I'm moving on, he contacts me to tell me it's a shame we didn't work and reminisce. Then, after sucking me in, giving me a few moments of hope, he tells me he is involved with someone else and we could never work. Why does he keep up with the mind games? He knows my heart hasn't moved on, it's almost like he really wants to hurt me. I don't know what I did, in his mind, to deserve this.

Oh yes Reese's Peanut Butter Pumpkins are out. The only thing pumpkin I like. They are different than regular Reese's. And next are the Christmas Trees. Then the Valentine's Hearts. Then the Easter Eggs. I can be in these Special Reese's for the next 6 months, maybe more depending on when Easter falls next year.