Oh, and I also had a very sexy dream about Boss last night. Not the first time, but love when that happens.

I had one meeting with Boss with cameras on, and screens were too small to see if he was wearing his wedding ring. But other things I have noticed - he painted the room he uses as an office. It was a pretty bold color, now it's a light neutral. Because I'm reading way too much into everything now, maybe going to sell the house??? I have full access to his calendar as part of my job. In the past two weeks, he's had a few Private Appointments on there. He does do that sometimes, and it's usually HR/disciplinary meetings sbout someone, so I didn't think much of it. But now I'm wondering. He sent a very late night email saying he will be out of office this morning for a few hours. That's the 2nd time in two weeks that happened, which is unusual. I know I am reading way WAY too much into everything since the whole wedding ring incident, but I just can't help it.

I have to work this weekend and Labor Day was well. I know DH and I probably weren't going to do much anyway but I still feel like I'm missing out. The good thing is I'm off on PTO starting on Tues 9/6 until Mon 9/19.

I don't know why, but I'm loving these confessions! Maybe because I was in a similar situation about 1-2 years ago. Nothing ever came of it, which is fine, but it's interesting to hear someone else go through it too. It's like having a teenage crush again!

Spent the day at work with my boss. Went to lunch with him and some other folks. Noticed that he wasn't wearing his wedding ring. And now I can't help reading way too much into that. He probably just forgot it or lost it or whatever. But now I have all kinds of thoughts going through my head. Next meeting where we turn our cameras on, I'll have to look. Surely, if he was going through some marriage issues, he would have told me. Not even for any romantic reason, but just because we're friends and that's the kind of thing we would tell each other.

I have another in-person work event with my boss all day tomorrow. I'm like a teenager trying to decide what to wear. Going to get no sleep tonight.

I'm tired of being the one who has everyone's back. When I needed support no one had my back. Old boss put a knife in it on his way out and everyone backed away from me. He was clearly retaliating against me for years of advocacy. How can you be afraid of a boss who isn't your boss anymore? People are such chickenshits! I'm done. They can solve their own problems. They need to quit coming to me. I know the ins and outs and have some power but I built that power. It can't be more important to me than it is to them. Fight your own battles, folks! I'm done!

I hate every single one of my clients.

I'm so fucking sick of this shit. I'm just so sick of this shit. I'm so fucking sick of this.

Jesus H Christ on a tripod - WHY would you even ASK me that? My God what is wrong with you? GTFO of my office. I'm busy. You are a walking talking time suck.