This is a tmi confession. I have a cystocele and rectocele (bladder and rectum both protrude into vagina). It's so depressing to have your body messed up like that. It's been that way since my 3yo was born "sunny side up." I don't think it's bad enough for surgery because it's not painful and doesn't really interfere with day to day activities. Sex isn't as enjoyable though...I'm looser and air gets trapped in there in certain positions. I've been doing kegels, so we'll see if that helps.

Back to staying up too late reading confessions. Thanks to whoever is behind this new confessors site. loved truu but I think I'm going to love this place just as much of not more. Its the hugs button that's put it over the top!:)

If my doctor doesn't decide to do the hysterectomy I might just do it myself. So tired of this pain. Items like being in labor again every month.

I'm shocked at how many people I know who don't seem to understand words these days. I have at least 6 friends who are single, and after every boyfriend breaks up with them says "I'm so done with guys! I'm going to focus on me for a while. No dating until I'm happy being single..." Or something along those lines. And days later they're on dates or madly in love with some guy they just met. One girl even got engaged to a guy just weeks after they started dating. He left her cuz she wasn't losing weightand when I said to her, in a private conversation, good riddance to anyone who doesn't love you the way you are she tells me "I'm just so sick of being lonely" and then when we meet up with people she's right back to "take some me time, no dating for a while..." When I said, at 15, I wasn't going to date anyone until I was happy being single I meant it. I didn't date again for 3 years. And when I found someone worth giving up the single life for he turned out to be my husband. I really wish they would just stop lying to everyone, including themselves,by either not saying it or by actually following through.

i feel so guilty. i stopped smoking cigarettes on 2/24. since saturday i have had about 6 cigarettes. some while wearing the patch........... ugh............

Dear neighbor, no I will not take your kids with me and my kids to ride bikes unless they have helmets. I don't care that you think they are useless, they are 7 & 9 and they need l helmets.

How to get a bikini body! Put a bikini on your body.

i used to talk on the old truu about my dd & her exboyfriend. they were together for 2 years. went through a lot of ups & downs. she got clean & sober, he didn't. he's the one that choked her dog and threw it against the wall. he od'ed on 3/23. his brother found him with a needle in his arm. he was only 24. my dd is so sad. that was her 1st love. she started drinking 4 days before he died. i'm worried. but it's her life. she lives on her own and pays her own bills.............

I still don't understand why she decided to not no longer be my friend. We were friends our whole lives. She pretty much disappeared from my life and never returned my calls. It really hurts.

I have major body issues and am uncomfortable at beaches and pools. We're vacationing at a water resort this summer (DH and DD are water bunnies). I wish I could hide in the room, but I don't want my daughter to inadvertently pick up my insecurities.