My kids have been bugging me forever to get spotify instead of pandora for streaming and I hate it. And of course, they're WAY too busy to help me figure it out. It doesn't create playlists based upon bands that I like (like pandora) and even when I search the band and find other people's playlists, I can't listen to them. It plays music for 15 seconds and then stops. I hate it a lot.

Even though the scale only shows me 2 lbs less vs. last time I weighed a few months ago, I am more fit and trim. Clothes are fitting looser and more muscles are defined even if it's not showing up in lbs. I won't stress about it and use how I feel as a barometer.

If I didn't start a morning run for the past 3 weeks as I work through heavy emotions, I would not have known she's only there from 7:30am-11am. Score. The best tamales I've ever had and I get to support a local community member. I ordered chicken (2), pork (1), peppers/cheese (1). Then on my walk back home, I saw my friend riding her bike towards me on her way somewhere. I very happily shared tamales with her! #unexpectedjoys

On my morning run, I noticed a food cart selling tamales! I circled back later to buy some and they're the best ones I've never had. I love little discoveries like this!

Ten pounds down, ten pounds to go!

What are your plans this weekend? I'm going on some long bike rides and returning to my fave yoga studio.

I have tracked the last 130 meals on Noom, but today I just skipped it and enjoyed a nice, big, home-cooked meal with zero guilt.

I should also add a daily routine of something small that brings you joy, eating nourishing foods, setting boundaries, and getting enough sleep.

New therapist, fam/friends support, Insight Timer app, say not to stressful situations (work, mainly), and this truly unexpected connection with M is helping me finally lift me out of chronic depression.

3 weeks later we're still texting. One of many learnings from him, is that I'm learning how to co-regulate with a man which is starting to help to heal my distrust of men. I'll call him "M" says I keep surprising and delighting him. I don't think it's like a crush now, but friendship or mentorship which feels much less pressure. Just deeply this guy's company and our unexpected online connection. When I stayed for his Live music session, it was when I was leaving my job which really cleared up my mental energy. I had even saw his Lives even before that, but didn't stick around because it felt too chaotic/anxiety and already felt too much IRL, I guess. Even since I left my job, I've been having unexpected connections with strangers.