I'm still a Motley Crue fan and proud of it.

Geez I responded to a confession and put the number in wrong. No matter how careful I am I always mess it up for some reason! Sorry

Oh yes for DM! “I feel you” is about the sexiest song ever made. When he starts taking his shirt off at the end of the video, oh yes please.

I made a healthy dinner tonight. Ate too much of it but I don't care! Roasted sweet potatoes with mushrooms and kale. Yum!

I don't have a weight problem, but I do have belly fat that I'm trying to get rid of. It definitely started in menopause, but I don't want to use that as an excuse to accept it. Because, for one, it's ugly and uncomfortable, and two, it's visceral fat which is dangerous and unhealthy. I don't diet, instead I try to mostly eat non-processed food, limit salt and sugar and I'm active, including HIIT and strength training. It's still IMPOSSIBLE to lose this ugly belly! And I've read so much contradictory information. "Eat keto to lower your insulin levels ", but then I read eating keto is bad for heart, kidneys, etc. Eat nuts, you're eating too many nuts, Eat dairy, no dairy's bad for you, take these vitamins, but you're taking them at the wrong time of day. Ugh, it's ridiculous! I'm going crazy just trying to be healthy!

Found a crouton in my wallet today. LOL!

I'm just now starting to get back to the point where you can't see my rib cage in my chest area. I don't mind if you can see my actual ribs in a bathing suit or something, but in a V-neck top? On my chest? I look skeletal. I have no ass, either, there is NO junk in my trunk. When I gain weight it happens in my torso and waist. I am built like a plank of wood.

I rarely bike after work since I don't like crowds at the walking path. But after seeing a few cute guys today, I may do it a few times a week. I refuse to let the landlord/housemate be the only in-person interaction each week. Aside from a coffee meet up, another chat with a friend, and visiting family, it's been that way since I moved here 5 mons ago. I'm feeling very isolated and lonely.

I used to be pretty overweight and struggle a lot with getting weight off. Then I was diagnosed with ADHD and went on medication. Fast forward a year and now I can't keep weight *on*. I'm struggling to maintain a BMI of 22 and not lose more. Even though I'm not a super low weight, I appear to be one of those people that loses a ton of weight in the top half before the butt and thighs. So the result is I have a great ass and pretty decent thighs, but basically no boobs and you can actually see my high rib bones (the ones under the collarbone.) It's actually infuriating, one extreme to the other. I know I shouldn't be obsessing over the way I look, but it actually freaks me out a bit because I used to have a friend with an ED who obsessed over "xylophone ribs." Anyway, fuck my life. Talk about feast or famine. (and no offence to anyone with this body shape who is happy with it, it's just I've never had that body shape and it makes me a bit uncomfortable)

Okay! So! I just dumped an entire bag of croutons into my purse! Literally fell off the counter, tipped upside down, and emptied it's entire greasy salty garlicky bread-crumb-y contents right into my freaking purse. How's YOUR day going?