Guess I got my wish…finally got the nerve to get stuff for Thanksgiving. Literally five minutes after I posted something about the store on facebook, my family member cancelled! Other plans or some BS. I was SO pissed! After I ranted to DH about it, I decided we should donate everything to the women’s shelter in our town, then immediately felt better. Ten minutes later he tells me he invited our widowed neighbor to dinner! Does he not get it that I’m a fucking wreck?? Can’t uninvite her, can’t run away. FML

I’m having some anti-social feelings and I don’t know why. DH and I had planned a quiet Thanksgiving because I just don’t feel like being in a crowd. Then I invited six family members for dinner when their living conditions changed. It’s been two weeks since the invite and my anxiety is through the roof. I dream about cooking for days, setting a gorgeous table, inviting the family to sit down….and walking out the door. I’ve yet to shop because I just can’t leave the house. I make plans every day to go to the store, then find 10,000 reasons to do it tomorrow. I’m in big trouble here. I can feel it.

I'm so envious of people who are close with their siblings. My sister is 8 yrs older than me and was just nasty to me when we were kids. I'm 40 and still have issues from what she put me through. We made up throughout my 20s, but she eventually fell back on her mean girl bullshit and I set some hefty boundaries with her. I rarely speak to her now. She recently had a car accident and is having some struggles. I feel bad for her, but my boundaries remain.

I painted my nails a glittery black, just out of boredom. I don't really care for it, but my husband then told me that black nail polish doesn't suit me and that he deserves a woman who doesn't paint her nails black, so excuse me while I go paint them black for the rest of my life! Petty, but I'm doing it anyway.

OMG, yes! When I was a Realtor, I switched to a brokerage in the adjoining county, and joined the FB pages of several towns there so that I could get a feel for the area. Of course you have the handful of people who just don't have language skills, but there is one middle-class town, adjacent to a more affluent town, where it seems like NO ONE knows how to read or write. Run-on sentences, no capitalization or punctuation, incorrect spelling and lots of text speak like, "ur goin 2 b late." I just popped on the page and here's what one woman wrote: "What is that plane in the sky doing. It been standing still for a couple of minutes by the tracks" I looked at her page and she even spelled the name of her high school wrong - "Wildrow" instead of "Woodrow." DAMN

H and I are vaxxed, but he isn't comfortable with the kids getting vaxxed now that it's available to them. He keeps citing things like fertility issues, myocarditis, general hesitancy, etc. And he says that "his sources" only show 93 kids dying from covid overall. I literally don't know how I can change his mind in a peaceable manner.

I hate Veteran's Day too. My husband is a vet. He was in the Army for 2 years out of high school. It was the shortest time he could serve, which is all he wanted. The closest thing he saw to combat was a bar fight in Georgia, which is also the furthest he travelled. He never would have enloisted if he had to actually deploy or put himself in harm's way. He only joined because he dicked around too much in high school to get into a decent college. But he expects everyone to act like he stormed Normandy and bow down to him bcause he's a veteran. And he will absoluely take advantage of every store discount, not to mention the free college degree and VHA loan. Yeah, I know. He's a dick. Already getting my ducks in a row to leave.

It's Veteran's Day again. And once again, I need to say that no one deserves respect just because they are a veteran. I'm a civilian but work with the military. Most of those folks are decent people. But a lot, A LOT, are racist, sexist, homophobic violent assholes who only joined so they could kill "Arabs" and "Commies." And a shit ton of them abuse alcohol and women.

You guys. Have you ever been in a facebook group where you don't really know anyone and you assume, from someone's verbiage and spelling that English isn't their first language? And then you creep just a little on their profile and find out they were, like, born and raised in Nevada or Delaware or something? And, you know, then you sort of lose a little more of your faith in humanity? Yeah, me either.

Idk what's wrong with me lately. The slightest social interaction sends me into some weird alternate universe shit. I get dizzy and overwhelmed and it's like I'm not in control of myself. I'm watching me, but I can't do anything about what's going on. And then after I can't remember anything. It's like I wasn't there at all. It's freaking me out.