Stream Of Consciousness
Posted by: anonymous
2021-07-11 02:40:33
ID: 67424
I am so everloving sick of worrying about covid every time i take the kids out to the grocery store. I just want to go to the fucking store without worrying about germs and masks and pandemics. I'm over this shit. It doesn't even feel like it matters what we do anymore, the world is going to hell anyway.
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Posted by: anonymous
2021-07-11 02:13:53
ID: 67423
Part 3- I don't speak to any of my siblings. None of them have ever reached out to ask me why. My brother sent me a text for my birthday and for the first time in ten years I told him- I wish you well, but a lot of things happened while Dad was dying, and you have never tried to make it right. For the next hour, we texted back and forth and all I got was defensiveness and excuses. At one point he said- I see there is no forgiveness in you, and I said What there IS in me is self-respect, and I don't put up with the kind of treatment I received from you. The three of them, my brother and two sisters, are people you can only have a relationship with if you are willing to put up with mistreatment and bad behavior. I'm not. I wish I still had a family, but not like that. I used to believe in Family First no matter what, but nobody ever put me first except me. So yeah, one email, and I'm back in all my old feelings, but it will pass. Thanks for listening.
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Posted by: anonymous
2021-07-11 02:04:34
ID: 67422
Part 2- Seeing an email from her stressed me out but she was straight to the point- do you have this phone number? I haven't heard from her since 2019 and she didn't even ask how we were. No one hears from her. So I found the phone number she was looking for, emailed it to her, and told her that I hoped they were all well and that I appreciated and respected her for the care and support she gave to our cousin. I took the high road. And I'd be fine with never speaking to her again.
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Posted by: anonymous
2021-07-11 01:59:22
ID: 67421
You ever get an email that makes you feel ill? Part 1- I posted a few years ago about my cousin and her hoarding issues- how she fell and had to be rescued twice, and they had to take her out through the window, how I called the company from the TV show Hoarders, and how her house just slid back to how it was. I tried to get her to therapy, I drove to see her regularly, and also got phone calls from her friends who were worried. I got a call from a social worker who seemed to think my cousin was going to move in with me and I had to tell her I didn't have room. Fact is, I did not want to have my cousin living here. I've done enough caregiving. My sister, who honestly wasn't that great at stepping up to take care of our dad, took our cousin in three years ago. She and I are estranged. Well, I got an email from her today. She is in the process of helping sell the house so our cousin can move into assisted living and wanted the phone number of another cousin, to give some things to him.
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Posted by: anonymous
2021-07-10 02:06:50
ID: 67418
When H and I eloped, we only wanted ppl we cared about most to be there. It was 7 ppl, including a friend of over 20yrs. She was also our witness. She got engaged, started planning a big wedding, invited me. She couldn't afford the wedding dress of her dreams, I let her put it on my CC & pay me back over time. I said as a wedding present, I'll pay $200 of it, so I paid $200 on the card immediately. Months later she canceled the wedding and has decided to elope in a couple weeks, told me all about it so I assumed I was invited. Today she calls me to ask if I'll use my CC for alterations too. I said ok, paid for it. Then I ask if she was inviting a lot of people or just a small amount. She told me it's family only, but if they throw a big party next year I'll be invited. This really hurt. I want to tell her that I'm adding on the $200 I gave as a wedding present since I'm not even invited to the wedding. What would you do?
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Posted by: anonymous
2021-07-09 20:39:40
ID: 67417
I just started doing a few hours a week volunteering for a local dog shelter's social media...and oh. my. fucking. god. I did my time in customer service, somehow I thought replying to public queries on Facebook (mostly) for a dog shelter would be fine. So naive. First thing on each dog's descriptor is a request to DM if you are interested in the dog because comments on images are sometimes missed. Which everybody ignores, usually by asking questions about the dog that are answered in the descriptor. It's also mentioned that we're a big shelter and most people are just volunteering so please be patient. The amount of people I've had just sending the worst, most snotty, impatient responses ever is crazy. If you can't handle a few hour's response time with patience, how the fuck you going to handle a potentially traumatised dog that needs patience, time and space as well as love, care and training? People are so nuts and entitled.
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Posted by: anonymous
2021-07-09 14:48:43
ID: 67415
I found out last night that my husband uses my vagina razor on his head. WTF. He doesn't get why this upset me so badly! But it really set me off. I have literally NOTHING that is JUST mine. I have to share my car, I have NO space in the house that is just for me, I have to share my body with everyone in the house. I don't even get to shower alone bc H is in the shower with me! There is nothing I get to do that is just for *me*. Nobody respects my space or personal items. I'm just so over it. Does that make me a selfish bitch? Maybe I'm just weird.
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Posted by: anonymous
2021-07-08 19:40:12
ID: 67409
In response to a confession. Yep, with my first husband, he overlooked my tears and pleas for help, even after I had surgery. He had his own business at which he only worked 35 hours a week, but I'd come home from a 5-day work trip to him showing me what needed to be cleaned around the house. So one day I sat him down to have a talk about what I needed, what I was missing, and how I felt unseen and unheard. We talked for HOURS. He wouldn't agree to counseling or a trial separation, just said he'd try harder. He didn't try at all, in fact he actually told me my needs weren't important. Yet two months later when I told him I wanted a divorce, he, too, was SHOCKED. He cried. I heard him on the phone with his sister saying he "didn't know" why I wanted a divorce. GTFOH
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Posted by: anonymous
2021-07-07 19:54:58
ID: 67404
I just came back from a great vacation - 5 days out in the Sierra mountains, just me and a backpack and a couple close friends. Sadly, as soon as I got back into cell phone range, I got a list of texts from DH, getting more and more urgent about my dad. Thankfully, the last one said 'crisis averted - call when you can'. Apparently he was throwing up blood yesterday, but refusing all tests. The day I left for my trip, he decided to fire his caregiver, and stop taking his meds. I worry about my dad a lot, but at the same time, his behavior is exhausting. I'm sure he is expecting me to hop on a plane and figure things out for him, but I told him last time was THE LAST TIME EVER, and I'm sticking to it. I'm talking with his social worker, and she will figure things out just fine.
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Posted by: anonymous
2021-07-06 22:32:17
ID: 67399
In response to a confession. I get what you're saying, but honestly, I don't do candles either because I have huge anxiety around forgetting about one and burning the house down. And we had a dog, and I don't want another one. I loved my dog, but I don't miss having fur everywhere, having to run home to let her out, the expense, etc. These things affect him too, so I don't think they're toally unreasonable.
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